Man I just had a total dad brain this evening.
Tennessee played at North Carolina in basketball tonight. I've been thinking about this game all week. I mean I had no expectation we'd beat a top 10 team on the road, but it's still a big game to get excited about.
Anyways, we came home from a great time hanging out with some friends and Charlie and I were home alone. And I completely forgot about the game. I didn't think about it once today. That was partly because I was enjoying some Secret Hitler with some of my favorite people. But it's also because I got home and was stuck in some depression about how unsatisfied I am with those friendships and how little time I get to enjoy them (which is a shitty thing to feel when you're spending time with your daughter).
All this to say, parenting changes the way your brain works. It's freaking hard. It's fun and joyous, but it's hard. Particularly when you're a selfish human like I am. A couple of years ago I would have obsessed about being able to watch this game in its entirety. To the point of it being annoying. Today, I completely forgot about it.